Both of those reasons I ltd one of the only things that I own with no bad memories attached to it and this may seem cringy but I can't stand to be without it it feels like I'm protecting someone when no-one will protect me
But my mind is in peices I get treated like I'm a fucking monster daily im not ever allowed to get anything and I'm constantly wondering if I should just leave I'm sorry that I've made you worried but don't I'm not worth it