I can't I lost friends too. I lost everybody. I lost my reputation, everything. And I can't get it back. Ever. But all I can offer you is either my friendship or not. I'm trying to help you wish, but I don't know all the answers
So I believe that you will come out of this stronger than ever. You are STRONG. It doesn't matter if it takes days months or even years for you to feel better, I will try my best to be there. Also, don't be afraid to show emotions, if you're sad, be sad.
You know what? Its okay. They are just not ready to forgive. They should forgive, because they themselves would want to be forgiven. Just know I am here for you if you would like to talk