Um... You know I love you and mini X.. But something just doesn't feel right. My heart and myself isn't fit for this role of being a happy. Protective wife when I'm the complete opposite.. Of those things... I feel lonely.. Hurt all the time something I should not be feeling.. I hate loneliness. But I feel more lonely even with loved ones around.. I'm.. Sorry... But I can't be with you... I want you to be truly happy.not wonder if your wife is going to disappear and kill herself. I need to love myself.. Be happy with my own life of mess and sadness....