If I write to her I’ll get yelled at,if I don’t tell her it gets worse

Yeah

Get yelled at

That’s what I think and that will most likely happen

Well I’m not diagnosed with any mental problem
But I just want to know how to stand up for myself against her

It’s fine,for a while I thought this is what all moms do

Told ya it was long

Lol
He’s like ‘what are you doing with your hand on my head’

Like she gave me gummies you help me sleep and now she thinks I’m happy.But I’ve lied to her about how that makes me feel better.Then when I was feeling like I was fat,I stopped eating.(and still I’m eating very little) but when she saw that I wasn’t eating,she was angry at me.Then when she said these things so much,I started to hear her voice telling me bad things and not to do what I’m about to do.And at night it’s screaming at me,telling me to listen to her.And now I feel like I’m controlled by her voice,but can’t break through.I cut myself with a knife a couple of times and it made me feel better,for a bit.Cutting makes me feel happy,that I’m getting what I deserve for being such a bad person.And now i Dont trust people,and keep everything to myself.

Then she calls me and my siblings ‘stupid’ and it really brings me down.Then there’s that time she hit me so hard in the stomach that I couldn’t breathe.I kept on gasping for air and telling her that I couldn’t breath while on the floor crying but she said ‘it was an accident’ then when I said I couldn’t breath again,she said ‘well I’m sorry you feel that way’ not even a ‘Oh,I’m sorry I hit you.Are you ok?’
Then when it comes to my feelings I feel like I can’t trust her,she hurts me so much.

When I’m in a bad moment my mom says it’s normal.Even if I cut myself (which I had,countless times) and says I’m so rude for feeling like that

Well,a long time ago I thought I was sad because my dad left and my friend ditched me but they both said something that means that they will come back but they haven’t
But then I realized the problem was my mom
She calls me names,makes me feel like the worse person on the planet,hit me once,lies to me,doesnt believe me when I tell her how I feel,and doesn’t even ask me how I’m feeling

Well it’s a really long story of events

K

Pet a dog
(I’m bad at giving dares,sorry)

Well I love it,thank you :3

Oh my glob-
The shirt
I love it
Also THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE IT SKSJZHJZJZNZBZBHZJnan

*now

*bow

It’s fine
I’ve been living with this for a while bow