thank you, im not even close to perfect, but still, thank you.

because i want you to learn from those experiences if that ever does happen.

yes.
and u wanna know why?

you make me so so proud, alex.

i trust you to make the right decisions and avoid those too.

i forgive, to heal from the past.
maybe u should try doing that too
never underestimate your will power

i would
but i need you to know those consequences

we all need some reassurance sometimes.

let me just, say a few words before u go sleep for the night.
you are loved
i cherish you very much
you've been through so much, and you make me so so proud
ur constantly out doing yourself, and i want you to continue doing that.

have u tried naps? they do so much for me, plus, out of all people, you need it the most.

fill your mind with happy thoughts before you go to bed

but if you go and die
i dont think i could

alex, theres nothing u can do that i wont forgive you for.

ignore the stress and take time for yourself
forget the world even exists for a moment
even i have to do that sometimes
and i can tell you now, it works dam well

i'd be so sad if you did

you have so much to live for. dont kill yourself

maybe start meditating if it gets to that point.
invest your time in self-care activities

take a moment of clarity, take a step back

close ur eyes, maybe listen to a hypnotic video ti fall asleep to, listen to the videos background music i sent u and relax an calm down

go to bed, for me.