that must be so rough on you.
I suggest when you reach of age you should leave n just b yourself . Until then, try to get in contact with friends that can help.
I'm so sorry ❤️ have you told anyone in your family you feel like this ??? They have to understand cuz you're amazing and you need to embrace yourself <333
You do you <3
Try to limit your requests if you do more.
For example, limit requests to 5 or sum!
You might be able to have more fun knowing you won't be rushed <33