Most of the time it is (before I started spiralling and being more open about what im feeling) it only ever was bed when you did that stuff do you realise that?
It came from how you were acting how you refused to change how you refused to acknowledge how you make others feel how you failed to acknowledge how you were wrong for doing that stuff and defended it
Every time 5 pm comes up I genuinely have a panic attack because I don't want to deal with this shit and all I can do is pray that that day would be good