Liza, this is your passion. This place is your meaning of life. Your calling. You can't get rid of your life because of frustration! I can tell that this place is- they all mean something.
...hm.. I understand how you feel, for I used to be the same way... but like I said earlier, I love you. And I'm so happy you decided to talk to me- I finally know how you really feel, and you finally are able to let it out