Hello

Around a month.

You have no idea dude… :)

Thank you Evan 🙏

Thank you, good luck with your surgery btw i hope it goes well.

Thank you Thank you, Thank you.

I probably won’t get off Animemaker because i don’t want to leave everybody, but im going to change now, we probably wont ever talk to eachother again but atleast he left me a note that showed me he was okay.

Thank you so much Evan. This is exactly what i needed to hear, Zimick is okay now and he is in a better place, now i can pull my shit together and get myself to a better place too. I was breaking down because i didn’t know how hard i hit Zimick but now that i see it didn’t mess him up too much i can put myself at rest.

But what if i freak out and say something that will make you want to stay away from me? I don’t want to hurt you like how i hurt Zimick

I don’t want to hurt you

I don’t trust myself to keep another relationship

Why am i broken?

Sorry my phone died lol, i did. Their original name is fishercat, thank you for telling me this

Thank you 🙏

You aren’t rude at all, i feel a bit better now. Thank you

I know, but it’s hard to not try to, all the time i have this icky feeling in my stomach like i swallowed tar and i don’t know how to deal with it. I feel like i lost everything, and even if i have so many things to be thankful for i can’t see myself deserving even one of them anymore.

Sorry if this is too much for you, im not feeling good right now

2 years ago, a wonderful person named Zimick introduced himself into my life and gave me joy, but when he wanted joy from me i pushed him away, and now that he’s gone i am filled with nothing but hate for myself.

Countless nights i’ve thought of him and how he’s doing right now and it makes me want to cut myself.

I’ve talked with my Mom about this, i’ve talked with my Dad about this, they don’t understand my situation they think im the victim but im not.

How could i not? Everything i’ve done, everything i’ve worked for, it was all for nothing. I lost such a good friend and a partner because of my stupidity and i can’t live knowing that i am the cause of that