it’s really hard telling myself that i’m not an annoying complaining fake bully bitch that gets sensitive over everything and that no one likes talking to me i just ruin everything and i wanna disappear but i can’t because i got upset when someone else did it but i can’t get a break i just want to sleep i want to hurt myself it’s so fucking hard fighting that urge i feel so weak i don’t want to go back how i used to be everyone hated me i hated me i’m happy what’s wrong with me i’m fine but yet i want to cry i want to be numb i want to hurt myself and it sucks im gonna take this back i know it but it hurts dude i know this is annoying i know i seem like a pussy bitch im sorry i get upset i feel like everything i say gets used against me i don’t wanna talk to anyone i don’t wanna feel i want it to stop but i can’t do shit about it because then people will get mad but i’m hurting really really bad..
i was gonna send that to my friends but i’m scared to id much rather put it here..