No it won't

My grades are gonna drop.
Oscar is FUCKING MOVING
That stupid girl from ELA is just gonna keep bothering me and I've got to pretend to not mind it.
P.E is gonna get worse
I'm gonna get fatter and uglier and no one will like me
My parents will be disappointed in me
I will be marked as a "special" kid because I have depression.
People will treat me differently once they find out I have depression.
Emma's left me
Oscar is leaving me
Caleb left me.
Monica, Brianna, kimmy has left me. When I mean left me, they never talk to me. Ever.

I just want to end all this.

My life sucks. I want to die.

I just want to die.

But you would forget.

Don't. You've already lost one friend, which you've pushed through the pain. You'll know what it feels like to loose another. Plus, you'd forget about me when I'm dead. Its no big deal

I heard that there is someone in oregon that's doing school shootings. Who knows which school but I hope it's mine so I could die

You didn't do anything that much, I'm just saying.

I could fucking end up killing myself one day because of a small ass word you said. I could be at the last straw one day idk what else to call that and end up killing myself because of that. I'm literally thinking of doing suicide rn. But i don't know how my parents wouldn't see me taking the knife into my room.

I've FUCKING told you before. If I'm fucking talking shit about myself and I'm actually mad or sad, u saying "funny" things never helps. It just shows to me that you don't care or take this seriously.

I just want to fucking pierce my heart with a knife and laugh while doing so as I fucking cough up blood and fucking die.

I'm killing myself.

[But u don't. I fucking love ur hair. That girl in my science class looks exactly like u and I always stare at her during class it's fucking embarrassing. I love her fucking hair, and I fucking love yours]

[At least black women are fucking attractive]

[But I think you're perfect. You're better than me in every way and u can't even argue back because you know it's true]

[YES I FUCKING AM. I REALLY HAD THE NEED TO TELL U THAT I LIKED U AND KNEW THIS WAS GONNA FUCKING HAPPEN. IM FUCKING STUPID. IDK HOW I FUCKING THOUGHT THAT YOU'D ACTUALLY LIKE ME BACK. IM FUCKING UGLY AS FUCK AND SOUND LIKE A FUCKING HOBO. I HAVE FUCKING ANGER ISSUES AND SEPARATION ANXIETY. I DONT FUCKING KNOW HOW A GIRL AS FUCKING PRETTY AND COOL AS YOU COULD LIKE A FAT, UGLY BITCH LIKE ME]

[ No but I fucking hate myself now. I KNEW you didn't like me back. I'm so fucking stupid.]

[I just feel like I don't wanna live. I don't even wanna meet u irl anymore because I'm so fucking embarrassed and embarrassing. I fucking hate my life]

[No it won't]

[It fucking won't Layla. Not til I'm over u, or til u confess that u like me fucking back. Don't make this sound weird istfg]

[But I have to fucking live with embarrassment until I get fucking over you.]