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[I had so much happen to me today I cried in the bus on the way home. I told my half friend guy that he made me cry bc him doing that was my last straw, and he felt really bad, and apologized. He also talked to me about my feelings n shit and how I can cope with them or smth. He's nice when he's feeling bad for someone, but rough overall as a person. I'm depressed man. I've been fucking depressed for at least over 4-5 months and nothings changed]
[I feel both not enough and too much. I feel like too much, by over sharing and talking too much and hanging out too much with specific friends. Someone literally walked away from me because I was talking to them too much and they sorta didn't have an excuse to walk away like that. I feel too little, like I never talk to people at my table when I'm supposed to. I never get my stuff done when it's a group project. I feel like nothing to my friends and super un- entertaining. I feel boring but also way too much. Someone i kinda know called me annoying once. My half friend and me were playing and I nudged him, he nudged me, I nudged him back and he full on pushed me into the locker and into someone else.]
[Reign knows I like him and it's super stressful now. He's ok with me liking him but I'm still scared and sad. He just knew I liked him. He told his friend which he asked them if I liked him and she accidentally said yes when I told her to keep it secret. It's not her fault. I was gonna tell Reign later in our friendship when we actually know each other, but he found out today. Since he doesn't know me well, he probably secretly thinks its weird and I think it's weird too. Becoming friends with someone then finding out they like u shortly after becoming friends with them. Jesus christ I'm so embarrassed. I don't wanna sit with him at lunch anymore, but he sits somewhat in front of my in teen survival, which is cooking. He doesn't like me back btw. I feel super stressed and awkward. ]
[In school I'm super duper stressed. I never get anything done and my grades are super bad, but when I'm in the classes that my grades are bad, I have no feelings of "oh no, gotta raise my grades! Gotta focus, gotta work!" I have absolutely no motivation. I get super distracted in class because of my adhd and people and things around me. I can't every focus because I never eat food, but eat it all at home and that's how I'm fucking fat. I never eat breakfast or lunch, only rarely. Food is fuel, people tell me. I fucking know dude, I just don't like eating school fuckin food, it's shitty and weird eating there I don't have much of a problem with it tho. I am super stressed in every class and idk why. I have below a D in every single class I have. Math, cooking, Science, Ela, band doesn't have a grade, Social studies, P.e. Below a D is called an "I" which stands for "incomplete" I have and "I"for every class.]
[I JUST SPENT 11 FUCKING MINUTES TYPING A LONG FUCKING THING FOR IT TO GET DELETED WHAT THE FUCK]
123: Yeah dude! Shiiiiiii
101: 123, ima shove that down your throat.
123: Psh, idgaf. Whatever helps me eat ig.
101: *he looked at 123* Whats goin on now?
123: Jesus is in here, he started break dancing then left when u snapped back js now.
101: *he was spaced out, not paying attention at all*
123: sure man! :D
123: *he snapped, virus immediately js getting crushed up into a ball, killing em* I hate that guy.