im a terrible person
i used to gaslight my friends to mznipulate them into thinking i did or didnt do crtain stuff, im lazy, i barely go outs8de, the outdoor light literally blinds me and im only tan because i was forced outside on my holiday, i spend all day onmy device c contemplatingg if i should even be nice to some people, i used to be so mean and cause so many arhuments because i was raised in such a bad place and mindset i thought it was normal to do so until like 4 years agoo when i go t into a terrible argument with one of my friends and they onky backed her up which i look back and realise was deserved, i only started trying to be a good person thenbut i still slip up and i syill unknowingly upset people and i hate it and i wish i was morally better i am morally good but i dont know what its about me i just have such a bad vibe and i wish i knew why and i wonder why everyone is so rude but i just unknowingly add to it i dont wanna but i cant im the problem somehow
i just remembered this dream. Once i had a dream where you broke into my neighborhood and was standing on the other side of the field where my house is. So i sprinted to you and gave you a hug. your apology is accepted boy 🥹