well my parents havent changed much in terms of how they were when i was young, they still try get me to do things i hate andgaslight me into thinking i need to do things 9r other stuff, they argue eachother adnd dhdzbdxh yczgzd not sometimes they just take their anger out at me but ngl my dad and mom have yeoled at ume so much to the point ive been desensitized to it
but i cant really be mad at my dad considering he grew up influenced in gang stuff and crimes so hes trying to change but idk anymore🥹
im a terrible person
i used to gaslight my friends to mznipulate them into thinking i did or didnt do crtain stuff, im lazy, i barely go outs8de, the outdoor light literally blinds me and im only tan because i was forced outside on my holiday, i spend all day onmy device c contemplatingg if i should even be nice to some people, i used to be so mean and cause so many arhuments because i was raised in such a bad place and mindset i thought it was normal to do so until like 4 years agoo when i go t into a terrible argument with one of my friends and they onky backed her up which i look back and realise was deserved, i only started trying to be a good person thenbut i still slip up and i syill unknowingly upset people and i hate it and i wish i was morally better i am morally good but i dont know what its about me i just have such a bad vibe and i wish i knew why and i wonder why everyone is so rude but i just unknowingly add to it i dont wanna but i cant im the problem somehow