everytime i think of you it brings me a reason to stay alive

im gonna try my hardest to stay alive as long as i can
im gonna be happy if i make it to 25
ill really try to do something about it i will

you make me so happy ash i love y ou sosossj dx djsoad sdak uch im so sorru you have to deal with me being like this i dont think anuone else was this nice to mee in ages hefore i met u and the others i dont even know how much ive been mistreated but i think i went through some psychological warfare as a little child i dont even know anymore im sorry

i think i might die at a young age because of my current general health state .. i can barely breathe most of the time, my lungs have a very small capacity and i could faint from just 5 minutes of exercise, my heart beats abnormally slowly and quietly, my blood has barely enough iron levels to function properly and i dont even check in on that, my brain is just so muddled up and mixed about everything, i cant even do normal hygiene i just havesuch bad procrastination and such low amounts of hope ive basically given up on myself
also i think my liver is slowly failing or atleast some crucial lower organ because ive been having tightening feelings and / or stabbing pains in my abdomen and the center of my chest
i think the bad health is finally getting tto me and it just makes me give up even more

thank uou thank you so much but my brain cant accept these things i dont know why i cant accept if im actually nice its like self sabotaging me
am i even manipulating myself too

AWWHIUWWHUISBH OK VRO
HAVE FUN AT THE WATERPARK THO OK OK
cause ive never been to one🥹

yesyesyse

we dont talk about cac today. OR reference it. /silly

Hey.

I DIENT MEAN IT LIKE THAT

wait that sounds wrong

Burps and you fly away into my bed

im lowkey just a chill scallywag though so i dont let it affect me that much 😛

yea, xdon too remember 🥹✌️💔

wait hey no this deserves more attention
mods, NUKE THIS POST. /j

i think i do the bare minimum a decent person needs to do
except i still mess up a lot and screw up my relationships

im really not 💔

i am NOT that good of a person gang 🥹✌️

no hes not my bf 🥹

his name is ted