I'm so sorry you're going through a difficult time, I've had them too. It's sad to know that someone is feeling bad, but if you're feeling bad or alone, I'll be here to support you.
I hope you're doing very well, maybe a family isn't so functional but it doesn't matter, we love you very much, I support you, if you feel bad, tell me, trust me.
1-Look for information on a reliable site
2-Ask or tell someone you know or trust.
3-Get tested at the hospital or tell a doctor.
These are some of my recommendations