*hugs you back*....I really am...

....I'll try to stop thinking about that...

........I'm so sorry if I'm making you worry.......

...I also don't know...

...no you are... your at least getting killing thoughts out of my head...

..I don't know..

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...no I'm not...

...how do I hold a special place in peoples hearts.....

I don't think that and I just got used to doing that I guess..

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....why do people care about me....why does my chest hurt....why do people say nice things about someone who is nothing....why just why...so many questions in my head...

I'm unhappy about my family I'm unhappy about my life I'm unhappy about things I've done I'm unhappy about my personality I'm unhappy about me I'm unhappy that I can't do anything right..

I know your here i will always know that and I'm sorry if I made you worry over a idiot like me

I'm not just unhappy here and there I'm unhappy all the time....... Why am I still talking about this no one understands anything about my life or what I have to deal with..

-jokes but I'm not like that anymore I'm just a person that gets in the way ect

..I can't bring myself to believe in anything anymore...I don't even know what happened to me.. I was a kid that was happy all the time that even in the sad moments of my life I tried to make myself happy by putting hat's on my dog ect trying to make joke

....I wish I could believe that....my childhood friend and my other friends said that to before they left me in a ditch to deal with trust issues and thinking everyone is lying...and hatred turds everything

-after my father left my family broke I was alone for as long as I can remember

...don't be sorry I'm a idiot who can't do anything right I was a mistake my brothers are right to call me a b***h or a a**whole because I am.. I get attack at school and I don't know why I try to be someone that everyone will like but it doesn't work.. a