No one knows about my thoughts exept my friends. Literally my family doesn't even know much about me, only my friends do. Plus I don't live with my mom, I live with my dad.

does your mom know about your suicidal thoughts

I really wonder how I'm not dead yet.

I had pork for dinner yesterday. I cut it, and ate it without chewing.

And I landed on my knees and coughed it up then it almost landed on the floor