i know that time is almost coming, but im scared. i dont wanna die, but my body says yes. sometimes i cant control my body. everyone takes me as a joke, everyone takes me as a disappointment. why.. why cant i just be fucking normal. why was i even born. why do people pretend to be my friend so i dont kill myself. i wanna slash a knife across what used to be my face. my mom is coming home today in a few hours but im scared because if i misbehave she might hurt me. i dont want that. im scared. i want to get out of this hell of a place called home. i dont like this.

i know this post is old, and were both strangers.. but i just wanted to let out my sadness here so sorry if its distracting. i wanna kill myself so fucking bad i dont want to make anyone sad or anything but i feel so useless. why cant my family just love me for once. even if its fake. i just want someone that wont be fake to me. i cant even be myself anymore. i broke my promise and cutted myself. i hate myself. i wouldve been dead by now but im staying to keep on cheering my friend on. just till he doesnt need me anymore, ill go.

I don’t know I wanted to color the background that color then I decided not to

oh..Why was it in that color then?

Stupid app! I accidentally put that dot there so I erased it but it put the dot back! This app is so glitchy