I know how you feel. I don’t want you to be upset, you’re gonna be fine... you won’t do anything stupid, and Theodosia will stay with you in spirit... right....?

I know...I just wish I could be beside her instead..

Don’t say that, I know how upsetting it is, but she will always be beside you no matter what! She would want you to have a full and happy life, she would never want you to die!