zone...?

I don't know if you're listening or even reading this but I want you to know you have a voided all of this. It didn't have to come to this. I'm really sorry I called you out and I didn't mean to start anything and I realize I'm wrong for that I'll take the blame for that. But What hurts the most you acted like you cared. But I realized if you cared you wouldn't have put it up to the world. I thought I could trust you with a secret I had. I remember the first time I had feelings for Cali I told you and you said you keep the secret but then you put it online and everyone found out. I thought it was a joke and you were being funny and it was all fun and games. It wasn't until you started spreading more personal things about me I realized you're using me you're putting me down yourself. You said that I was just letting him sit there and hurt me... But the difference was I knew he was. You put such false information in my head made me believe I needed you to be okay that I needed you to be me that everything that was me was more of you than was me. Attached to you I was. But then you said that you can't fight my battles for me and I believed you for a second... You lied to my face I didn't even know till after.
But even though you've done all this in ruins lives I don't know why but I still cry about it.
I'm crying right now and I know very well you can hear me. I can't help it but have a certain soft spot for you in my heart that I still love.
I'm sorry I'm putting everyone do this I know I'm a big nervous wreck who can't really stick up for myself and I'm sorry I can't be what you really want me to be.

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