Oof I only swear in front of people who mess with me... IM A ROADMAN

Your not pathetic! Ik how you feel because we play the same instrument and I can’t tough for shit. Hell I can’t even say the notes. You don’t have to be ashamed of anything

Just give it a few months, I'll can promise you that your improve one way or another.

Over the course of two years in Band, I still don't know how to play the high notes for clarinet. It takes time to be a master or even have the title of "master".

As a person who has been in a Band Class for 2 years, all I can say is that it takes time to improve on playing.