I know this is depressing!

Okay! Hear me out.

Just about a week or two ago, I was playing trombone at home in the basement so I could get a passing grade. Made sure no one was home because, I have major stage fright and low self esteem. I also sad o probably have anxiety.

Anyways, I was just about to play the trophy when suddenly, i couldn’t breathe as well as usual. I kept on playing anyways... it sounded awful. I felt like someone was listening. That is a very bad thing if you have as much of judgmental family as mine.

I started crying. I dropped on the ground and started saying so many horrible things to myself. I hatted it.

As usual, when that happened, I thought of a therapist. I wondered if i needed one. I thought about telling my family about being bi. I thought about telling them about my possible anxiety.

I stressed myself out more.

My family doesn’t believe in depression or anxiety.
I shoved the trombone in its case and went upstairs. I still don’t know e we hat to do about any of that.

If you have advice, please tell. I need it.

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