WAKE UP

I don’t know but I always have this bad feeling that I’ll never be like everyone else. Good art, good animation, popular, have friends, aren’t edgy shitlords who vents 24/7, I could go on.

The thing is, some people say nice things to me, but I don’t think they actually mean it, and why would they? I’m surprised I’m still on here and haven’t quit yet, I probably should so everybody’s happy.

I want to take a break, but I feel like if I do everyone’s gonna be disappointed in me, angry, sad, forget me forever. Just like I say I don’t want to be alone, but when I finally get the chance to talk to someone I don’t want to, and I just want a place to be safe.

I don’t feel like I’ll ever be successful in life. I’m probably gonna end up on the streets, end up in jail, not go to college, etc... I may aswell kill myself at 18, or a few years less if I want to be safer.

I stay up past 9:00 AM and wake up at 2:00 PM, not even melatonins help. When I wake up late, at least 11:00 AM, my mom yells at me and tries to annoy me. I feel like I’m always neglected by her and I don’t get a chance to say my reasoning, and if I tried she’d probably beat my ass. I’m too scared to even look her in the eyes.

I sound ungrateful, I know, I know my mom has to sit on a dick to make me, my dad has to do his job so he can keep me and brother alive, but I honestly just want to give up on everything and die.

I don’t think anyone’s actually gonna take me seriously, but oh well. A lot of people on here fake depression so what do I know?

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  【Erythrophobia】

It’s not just my art, it’s everything else going on

4 years ago   Reply

  G̸̺̈́̂͒̍̒̇͝ḥ̷̢͍̙̪̎̎̅̅̄̃̀͂͑͝...

Dude youra art = already better than mine people here does not understand your art

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