I always cry for no reason

I probably would after I get better or somethin

But like they are my brothers friends I literally don't play with anyone else other than my brother and my cousin but either way they end up kicking me from the party

And they are all boys

Every time I join their party "eW ShES hEre" like I've never done anything to them and then they complain about me being "rude" and if I ever was rude it's because they are mean to me
You don't know how many times they've told me to go kill myself they always say it's a joke but we know it's not
Now my head hurts I can't think straight I'm shaking and i keep crying