Is this how you feel or is it just something edgy that you wanted to draw... if itās the first thing that I typed in at the beginning then I feel worried for you. If it has nothing to do with your art then I feel terrible that you have emotions like that for your dad Iām assumingā but then again I donāt know the whole story so I canāt say much. I know Iām not the type of person you want to speak to but if you ever want to talk to someone or feel like your going to have a anxiety attack because of what might have happened please tell your friends or someone you trust In this app and talk to them, Iām sure they will listen and help you feel better.