No I can’t die

I’ve dealt with being suicidal. My family hates me and eachother, my mom left me and I have an abusive dad. But I mentioned killing myself and they reminded me how much they would miss me. The school wanted to put me on pills because I kept mentioning it but nobody understood. My family still sucks but now I understand that I matter more than I think. And you matter more than you think. If you kill yourself you don’t know what you’ll miss or how sad you’ll make the ones who care about you.

No one would be sad

But I wanna die 😕😔