Has anyone ever felt...

so disappointed in the choise you made, leading to something fucking disgusting to face.... well tell me if this ever happend in your life before.

So your playing with a friend online, having a good time, and your friend suddenly has a bunch of others who want to play with them, and your damn mind misses that friend any time there not around, so you get all mad, and deal with it saying "you go have fun, I won't be awake anyways. " and leave. Later they message you on insta, making you feel way more remorse then before, leading you into crying, and not responding, wanting to just fucking die... never be seen again, so remorseful, everything collapsing around you , you can't even think straight, you don't know how to respond, to apologize, or say how you feel or do you just ignore them, for them to start getting worried, even more remorse... AND YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO AND YOUR SCARED TO DO ANYHTING, YOU DONT KNOW WHATS GOING ON, THEY KEEP INVADING YOUR MIND!! YOU JUST WANT TO STOP THINKING ABOU THEM, WISHING YOU DIDENT CARE SO MUCH , WISHING YOU JUST LET THEM GO, WHICH YOU DID, BUT MAKING THEM FEEL BAD AND... AGRGH!! YOU DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE SO YOU JUST SIT AND CRY..

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I feel you.. I have made so many bad decisions based off emotion at that moment, that I eventually came to the conclusion that everyone hated me, and that’s why I barely had any friends, and the friends I did have betrayed me, and took the side of a manipulator. Including my crush back then (I stopped crushing on him)
Hell I was friends with the manipulator, and became a bully... it took me like 2 years to finally see that she was just manipulating me.
I tried to have a romantic relationship online, with one of my old friends from elementary... I ended the relationship after 48 hours bc I couldn’t do it.
I felt so disappointed in my self...
But I’m trying to be a better person than I was- since high school started I have been trying to meet new ppl- and avoid most of the ppl who were from my middle school.
So, Your not alone

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