i'm sorry.

abdel,
i'm sorry i didn't tell you early on about how i felt uncomfortable on how you would keep making posts and art for me. it's not that i don't want you making things for me- it's just that personally, it felt like you were lowkey obsessed with me, and i was concerned about our age gap since i'm 11, and you were 15.

of course, i wouldn't say that abdel is innocent- like, not at all. you can still argue that he's a p*do and he's done some really shitty things that he hasn't apologised for like being transphobic, but at the same time i never exactly saw myself as innocent in this situation. i probably could've been able to just handle this situation all by myself but NO, my stupid immature little ass decided to make a fucking post about it. THAT is something that i am incredibly guilty for.

i'm so sorry to my mutuals and friends who got involved, ESPECIALLY liz. you don't deserve to have gone through all this shit. i'm really grateful to have you and everyone else as friends and thank you so much for defending me throughout this whole thing. i genuinely appreciate it- though i think it's fair to say that i'm still at fault for a number of things.

again, i apologize deeply for all the controversy i've caused. i should be held accountable for my actions, and i admit that i acted very immaturely.

please do NOT bring this up again or make anymore posts about this situation. we're both really tired and just want this all to be over.

thank you.