ABDEL.

I HATE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH.

HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU TO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP TALKING ABOUT ME? DID I NOT TELL YOU TO DROP THE DRAMA? DID I NOT TELL YOU STOP MISGENDERING ME? DID I NOT TELL YOU TO JUST FUCKING STOP?

YOU'RE SO FUCKING IRRITATING.

HONESTLY? I'VE BEEN CONSIDERING TAKING BACK THAT APOLOGY SINCE YOU'RE DUMB ASS ISN'T EVEN WILLING TO DROP THE FUCKING SITUATION. THAT'S THE MAIN REASON I WROTE IT. BECAUSE I WANTED THIS SHIT TO STOP,

BUT NO.

YOU'RE A DISGUSTING, MANIPULATIVE, TRANSPHOBIC, SHALLOW ASSHOLE THAT DOESN'T RESPECT THE WISHES OF OTHERS BECAUSE YOU HAVE YOU HAVE SUCH AN ENOURMOUS FUCKING EGO TO CARE.

YOU TRAUMATISED ME.

I FEEL SO FUCKING UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND MEN NOW BECAUSE OF YOU, SOMETIMES EVEN WITH MY OLDER FRIENDS/MUTUALS. I'VE BROKEN DOWN MULTIPLE TIMES OVER THIS SHIT, AND YOU HAVE THE NERVE TO CALL YOURSELF A VICTIM? YOU STILL THINK YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG TO ME?

AND NOW YOU'RE USING MY OWN GODDAMN APOLOGY AGAINST ME? SOMETHING THAT SHOULD'VE ENDED EVERYTHING?

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO WANTED THIS ALL TO END. WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT?

WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST APOLOGISE? THAT'S ALL YOU HAD TO DO. JUST MAKE A GENUINE APOLOGY. ME AND MY MUTUALS ALREADY STATED AFTERWARDS THAT I FELT SLIGHTLY UNCOMFORTABLE, SO WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST SAY "SORRY"?

I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA ON HOW TO HANDLE THIS SITUATION ANYMORE. I CAN'T EMAIL KENMAZ OR ANYTHING. THIS WHOLE SITUATION HAS TRAUMATISED ME AND I JUST WANT NO PART IN ANY OF THIS.

PLEASE.

JUST FUCKING STOP.