Vent, if you dont like this, then don't even click on this.

I wanna be a boy.
Not just in here, but in real life, too.
I don't want breasts.
Period,
something I hate to get.
I know it's natural,
but, it's too painful and hard to live with.
I'm so tired of being a girl, a little.
I just wanna live a happy gay life.
Guys are more attractive for me. For me.
Some people might find this stupid, it's true though.
I just wanna be a boy, guy, male, gentleman.
At the same time, I don't wanna lose the stuff I like for being a girl.
Like, my real *second* name as an example.
I know it's up to me if I'll change it or not.
But, if I actually turn into a boy. People might make fun of me for having a feminine name I kept.
The others are complicated.
There are stuff that stop me from wanting to be a boy;
And there are stuff that gives me an urge of wanting myself to be a boy.
I don't know what I'm doing.
If I should be a girl or a boy.
I just get so jealous when I look at gay couples.
I wanna live like them.
I also wanna wear tuxedos and other stuff.
Some dresses are itchy, tuxedos will be likely more comfortable for me.
I don't even know.
People might just ask me,,
''Why are you wearing that? You're a girl!''
''Are you a boy? No, you're not.''
-about it, except for kind-hearted and supportive people.
When I come back to school,
announcing me being a he/him/his but a girl irl,
my classmates would start to judge, fucking judge,
I hate it.
They just don't get it, damn.
Ack, can't believe I'm doing this through a vent-
“Replace “Michelle’’ with the names of people who hurt you’’
Tyrone
Anfeliz
Chris
Felin (kinda)
Freyja (kinda, sorry-)
Abel
Ethan
Kenshin
Jovel
Kurt (can't believe you had a crush on me, Aliona said so. Or was it Zyrah or Justine?)
Martha
Nikki
Ken
Cedrik/Cedric

I apologize for people who have the following names, I'm talking about these who are such mf's to me. 🙃

Sorry for doing this “stupid’’ vent.

(12-28-20-Tue)

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