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I can only talk with my friends on a chat because Corona, and one of my friends left the chat without saying anything and it was fine with me because she's done it before so I let her back in and she left again. Apparently everyone in the chat knows but me, my friend [ Name ] said she didn't want me to know. So now my anxiety is killing me and I want to cry but can't because I'm severity dehydrated and I've learned to hold in my emotions as to be strong for the others but now I need to cry but my body forces me not to, I have anxiety to the point it makes me depressed and suicidal and I'm thinking of hurting myself. I truly need help but can't get it because I'm terrified of talking to people and if I take medication I'll end up throwing it up and I can't control it, I've had issues since the second grade and I've always had to push through on my own and I still don't know what to do and I might throw up soon out of sadness and might just stay up all night in my room starving myself until I feel better...

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