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I have so much to do and no energy i cant see any future for myself and i want an easy way out of the mess that ive created so badly but the only way out i see is offing myself
I know how to tie a noose by heart and some ribbon i have is suprisingly strong i know im not going to do anything irrational but it feels like the only way out
We're probably going to move to texas closer to my aunt. I fucking hate my aunt so much and i dont want to say why im so fucking terrified and i cant stop crying my rooms so messy i want to throw it all away
I got a new plant what should i name it? I think my cat's gonna die and im so scared my mom wont take him to the vet i love him so much ive been binge eating for the past week and i dont know where my knife is matches really hurt on the skin and im so scared of getting burned i dont deserve any of the things i have im remodeling my room even though we'll probably move so fucking spoiled im so scared. my aunt i hate her so much she ruined me but she didnt its my fault and my porn addictions so bad i cant stop i have like 2 tests and who knows how many assignments missing im gonna fail and be held back a grade and ill never get to do what i want i can feel my brain descending into stupidity i can only see myself dead though i know i wont try to off myself right now since im a coward

Im so sorry for writing this please dont worey about me im totally fine just a little bit overwhelmed im not gonna kill myself and im not gonna harm myself i promise
Im just spewing words honestly

Ig i can do confessionals since im leaving lmao:
My aunt raped me when i was 8
I have a really shitty porn addiction
Ive been planning suicide for about 2 years

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