Another vent

TWS: Sexual Abuse, Sexual Assault, Childhood Trauma, Parental Abuse

Sorry no decent art this time who cares

I can't handle this everythings falling apart I'm wishing every day that the date of which I'm supposed to attempt suicide could be tomorrow. But I know I have to wait. I have to get things in order. I have to build up stamina.

how slutty is it that I don't even have to try and get rid of my gag reflex bc it's already gone because of my dad. Yeah I lied who gives a shit I have way more memories of my dad then I'll ever let on.

I remember my mom saying how I was always his favorite. Was I really just conceived to be molested by both parents? Just conceived to be a slut? Is that it?

Why can't I see that as bad? Why do I still love them both to bits?
Why?

Everythings crashing and burning. All my friends are going to see how terrible and disgusting I am soon. I should've jumped off the 12 story apartment complex as soon as my 1st grade mind thought of it.

I only exist to provide
I do not matter
I'm so terribly sorry it's all my fault
Please let me repent
I'll do anything
I don't care if you rape me just let me beg for forgiveness

On my knees
Just like when I was 4

  Kkarma

You are more than what they did to you.
I can relate to loving people who hurt you. It’s so hard to truly hate them when sometimes they seem “better now”
I hope you know you are loved by us. Not for your body. Because your an amazing person.
You have always and will always matter. Even if bad people made you think otherwise.

💕

You did nothing wrong. He’s the one who should beg. And you aren’t expected to forgive him

I’m always here if you need to talk

2 years ago   Reply

  emma

BESTIE ILYSM
ur the closest friend I have
im always here if you need to vent privately <3
life sucks, it sucks so bad but we all know ur strong enough to get through it
you got this 💗
im sending all the love and support to u 💕💕

2 years ago   Reply

  boy_p⛧nties

🥵kill me

2 years ago   Reply

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