she's already said she would've, but I realized she didn't because she wanted to protect her "perfect mother 💕" image- she's told me she hates. me and that her life was better before me but she didn't abort or put me up for adoption cause people would think negative of her

She loved u enough to raise u in a house right? It’s not like she put u up for adoption

well thank you :3c

Those are only recommendations though

Wish I could help you there. The only other thing that I would recommend is if you love her show her that continuously even when it’s hard to. And when ever you see a golden moment to let her know how you feel Take it.