Intrusive thoughts

So many gross thoughts

I told my mom about this disgusting urge to mutilate myself, she told me if I ever feel like I am about to do it I should tell her, and that we will make a code word if I were to get close to attempt. We both deal with OCD and intrusive thoughts so she understands where I am coming from and isn't going to tell my dad or grandma. (Yet.)

I am happy I had gotten to express my feelings to her, she is going to try and get me a therapist asap. <3