Quick little vent

So I'm thinking that I might be lithromantic, I'm not 100 precent sure though, I mean I do loose interest when someone says they like me back and I've forced myself into relationships because I knew I liked that person and I felt confused when I didn't like them when they liked me back and because I forced myself to date them I've had some good-ish relationships (some have been grand and they were amazing) but now I can't even try forcing myself into a relationship because I'm scared to be in one, not cause I don't like said person- I do! And I know I still might have feelings but it's just so hard to understand because I want to be loved. I want to be in a relationship. I want to love another person. I wanna be a partner. I wanna have a partner. But I just can't seem to understand why someone would like me back or hell even wanna be with me, I think that disconnect is what's making me feel so repulsed, and I feel bad. I feel awful because I've lied to people about why I couldn't date them even if I liked them. Is there something wrong with me?

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  ♡~ cotton candy ~♡ she/her

No nothing's wrong with you at all! Do you have self love for yourself? If not maybe that's why you're feeling that way, if you don't love yourself and don't know your best qualities, you probably think they won't like what's good about you or probably don't understand why they like that certain thing about you. You could possibly be scared that they'll fall out of love with you and break up and that's why you can't get in a relationship. Maybe lying to people about why you can't date was a little bad idea, and if you told them about how you might be lithromantic they would have understand a bit and accept it. If I made you uncomfortable about this then I can delete it (I did make assumptions ), I only found out what it means today.

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