You arenāt a bad person, as long as you can feel good about how far you made it in life. Take a cookie, for example (use your imagination). It will try to survive without breaking in half, or getting eaten. Itās main goal is to survive until it ages out (expires). If it manages to live a good life, it will become old (like I said, expire), and it will most likely enjoy itās afterlife. However, if it gets eaten, it probably wonāt. Appreciate life and how long and far youāve managed to live. Even if nightmares disturb you, try to think positive.