Just Thoughts…😞
First off, I apologize to merakii. I don’t aim to trigger anybody with their past traumas cause I’ve been there, done that while I was growing up too and I know pain all too well.
I had a rough childhood too and art is one of the things that stuck with me and has been one of the only things to truly keep my imagination, hope, and happiness alive.
I’m sorry that being an older artist makes some on here uncomfortable. I can’t control my age and no one should have to apologize for how old they are. But I’m doing it because merakii put to light just how deep trauma can really go.
I was also triggered because even though I may be 31, sometimes that’s a little hard for me to remember some days. My days literally run together so much and time goes by so fast. It literally feels like I graduated high school or college just yesterday on some days and then I realize just how long it’s really been.
But I blame society for giving such a negative stigma around aging. We’re taught at a young age that growing up is scary and horrible. And although some aspects of adulthood are scary and horrible, it is not the end all. I just want to be the one to say that before you guys grow up and experience it.
There are great moments and sad ones too. Kids/teens tend to think adults are just mindless people who do nothing but work and have responsibilities and watch the news all day long. But it’s not true. Not for all of us. We still feel. We still hurt.
I’ve maintained the same youthful, optimistic, and genuine outlook on life as I did as a child and I’ve kept my endless creativity and imagination through my art. I mean hell I still faithfully watch anime and cartoons lol I hate the news. It’s too depressing.
I don’t want to keep making people uncomfortable though. I wanted to keep AnimeMaker to have another drawing app at my disposable and stay connected with the young artists that actually look up to me. I truly appreciate all my fans. 💖 They all keep me motivated to continue pursuing my dreams. ✨
But maybe AnimeMaker isn’t the best place for me to stay connected with fans. Maybe I should just create my own website so even those who don’t have social media can still have a way of seeing my art and progress and seek art tips/advice to help them on their art journey.
That’s a big thought that I’m taking into consideration now. But even if I don’t decide to do that and opt to keep using AnimeMaker as another art outlet for myself, for those uncomfortable by my presence…it is ok if you block me or just don’t interact with me in general. I will understand and won’t be offended by that choice. You have the right to do what makes you feel comfortable.
Thank you all for supporting my dreams!!! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
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