Rage vent 😤

Vent!

I hate that my mom can be so nice and so mean, how quickly she flips.
She can literally be so positive and accepting and kind and it makes me feel guilty for feeling like i hate her when shes angry and harsh and hypocritical. Ive come to realize its def unintentional gaslighting… im so mad that shes so unnecessarily angry at me all the time then when i get upset she is ALWAYS the victim. My problems never matter to her. She gets so snotty for such tiny things!!!
Actual convo;
“Mom can you grab the last thing from the washer i can’t reach it.” (My arms where full of laundry, our washer opens from the top so i couldn't lean down to grab it without dropping everything else)
“JESUS FUCK *DEADNAME*! WHY DO I NEVER GET TO SIT DOWN AND RELAX?! FINE. BUT INCASE YOU CANT SEE IM FUCKING BUSY”

im so pissed at her all of the time. She treats me so badly sometimes.
She had a physically abusive childhood, she thinkd that just because she dosent hit me and gives me hugs anf “listens to me” that theres no possible way our dynamic is toxic. She cares about my problems till i need help.
Its never fucking hood enough. Its never enough. ITS NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR THAT WOMAN.
SHE LITERALLY CAN GO FROM SMILING AND LAUGHING TO YELLING IN LITERAL SECONDS.
shes set up a system where i have to walk on eggshells and lie to keep her from being angry at me, then shes mad when i dont trust her.
She demands we have a healthy relationship, but only onesided. Only if it benefits HER. What she really wants is a dynamic where she treats me however the fuck she wants and i deal with it and im fine and im perfect.
God im so pissed

  Kkarma

Dino

Yessir

2 years ago   Reply

  Dino

“JESUS FUCK *DEADNAME*, WHY DO I NEVER GET TO SIT DOWN AND RELAX!? FINE. BUT INCASE YOU CAN’T SEE IM FUCKING BUSY”
are your mom and my mom twins?

2 years ago   Reply (1)

  Kkarma

emma

Ty!! This helped a lot!

2 years ago   Reply

  emma

I'm so sorry you are going through this
adults in general suck and they never understand. the best thing you can do (in my op) is just talk to someone else. anyone who you're close to.
try to be rlly nice to her and do anything u can to make her feel guilty enough so she fucking stops
I have a really bad and abusive father and I honestly just try to be the 'good kid' in the house. I'm also the oldest so I'm usually targeted and yelled at aswell so I know how stressful that can be
if she's invading ur privacy don't fucking let her because thats not okay. my dad constantly made me uncomfortable too and he stopped once I threatened to tell the cops. I really hope this helped and hang in there
remember adults just don't get it and its NOT ur fault
ilysm I rlly hope it gets better for u <3/p

2 years ago   Reply (1)

  Kkarma

I cant wait for the day i get to tell her im moving far, far away. I cant wait for the day i look her in the eyes, tell her im trans and leave and dont come back. But at the exact same time i wish with everything in me it never comes to that.

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