y do iapways wakeup and feel this way

utell meto moveon and imchoosing tostay upset oh,ygod iwould never wish this feeling innahone morethan
everr doi wamt it togoaway, obvi ucamgongetijtonew relationships easier,, ididntvenedoanynoftheshittythingsnundidntome.. imjs feel so lonely causeidk who will getwhat i,saying or even kmowhowtomexplainthis andnow imcryingahaim sosmtupid haha.. i’m so sensitive haha.. nd imstillworry abt the thingnuntold,e how imsuppoed tom,voemonnwhennuntell ,enthaynorm ormwasitamother wasfor u,to manipulate me nd lovebomb me.?? idunno immtoo tired nd frustrated to think dies… 4ever….. emo posts,will,go down when i wake up ndu wakeup andhalf a wholeperosn there tocokfortu andihvae noone icantrusts ivemet somanyppl nd imtotiscaredtomgrowmanhsrtof emotinakmconnectioncus whatifthey useme soho sob.. dies forever….mandnever.
l.man’s ever….l ZHISHIHENENENEHEHEH FRUTSRATINGG GKMSKS,SMSKSM truly wishmumchanhe to be better for ur furturempartner, im sotired of feeling this way i feeloike im accoecfint this feeling for so,some else but when will someone endure thispain for me likempls GOAWYAYAYA BRUHHH all i’ve gotten from thiswas myfeelin unvalidayed and stupid apology thay u promise to change then guess what? u lie to me, u saymurmgonna be better then end up being better for someone else, not me.. so 为什么，？ 为什么我？？why even say it??? pls stop 爱一切恰一起manipulating me and love no,bing me .. u even tell me i WNATED TO be mean tom,e but still deny using me this whoeltimr?? cantnutellim lost all self worth,,min don’t even feel deserved to be NEHEJEKSNSNSNNDloved any,ore andn unstillmtell me i UGHGHHFF…waschoosing to stay UHGHTBEUDHENSJJWKWNSNNupset… i never want anyojemtomfeelmthismway.. i just wanna be held and be told genuine thingssm..lm somtiredmmof felekung like this ok. ijs meedto i’m long over u, but how can u expect me to move on from things i was told or treated its so AHHSHSHSJ sibsob