I'll make it as difficult as I need too for you too rethink it. like I said, you are amazing. I need you to understand that for me.

i.m actually crying because of you but don't make it even harder for me to kill myself i will post just one more post to see who actually cares about me

it's not the fact that I know that's the problem, it's the fact that you are a very dear friend to me, and it would absolutely kill me, as well as many others I'm sure, if you hurt yourself like that. you may not realize it, but you are very important to many ppl here, you are amazing despite what you say and think. you mean a lot to me, and you shouldn't blame yourself for everything the way you do. it's not your fault, and you deserve more credit as a friend(and bf) than what you're giving yourself.

And i.m having my last chat with everyone

And i.m sorry that you know but it's just the way it is