Rouxls: I know he doesn’t actually love me. Nobody does. I’m just a toy, a living napkin, use me then toss me away. No guy I’ve ever loved said he loved me back. I’ve been tossed aside enough to know how cheap I am. And if he did say it it was a lie. I’ve never been in a relationship that lasted. As you can tell, because I’ve had three boyfriends within less than two years.