A
now am proud

Yeah unfortunately
Homophobia is normal there :/

So, being gay is a bit allowed but only under private measure

Not really
As i see in Wikipedia Gay sexual conduct between consenting adults in private is not a crime in Turkey. The criminal code also has vaguely worded prohibitions on "public exhibitionism," and "offenses against public morality" that can be used to harass gay and transgender people.

In Turkey, the same thing happens