Thats what I want to hear! 💕💕💕 I'll cheer you on!

I will try

Then they are toxic friends, you don't need them. ^^ everythings going to get better, if you keep going forward! 💕

I have been block from all of the balls

Listen, Followers isn't going to kill you, just because you have 1 follower doesn't mean it's the end of the world.
You can find happiness and so many ways, but followers won't.
So stop, going around saying "I'm gonna die" because that's something that shouldn't be joked around with.
Now, you can be patient. You'll get them soon I promise, I know how you feel. And your friends dont hate you because of loosing your account, they still love you for who you are, so step up your game and go help yourself!