istfg [[sorta vent]]

I've been working so hard

I've been practicing my trumpet I every bit of my spare over the entire summer, spare 4 days that I went to Florida w/my friends

I've been working almost 24/7 on a job that I don't even get paid for, w/absolutely no complaints what-so-ever, working until I nearly can't move

I've only been able to visit my friends 4 times over the entirety of my last school year and this summer, that's including the 4 days in Florida

I've been cleaning, cooking, and helping get bills paid by going to work

but I can't get one day of a fucking break

I have had little to no break this year, I'm tired as hell and I haven't been able to properly take care of myself in months

it's not my parents fault, it's mine for not being able to say no to them, but I'd expect them to be able to tell when I need a fucking break

I've been cleaning since 5 in the morning, only sitting down for abt 20 minutes, and when I asked for ONE lazy day, they decide they want me to go to work at 2 in the morning instead

mind u it's 10:21 rn qnd I'm supposed to go to sleep

I was gonna draw for a few hours since I haven't rlly had any time to sit and indulge myself in my art, and then sleep in tmrw since band has been canceled, but NOOOO abso-fucking-lutely noylt you fucking dumbass, who gave you the right to tale a fucking break

I feel like no matter how hard and how long I work it's just not enough, I still need to keep working, no matter how hard it effects me, and it's breaking me down slowly

I feel like garbage and now I can't sleep

.

I might delete this might not idk

I'm so fckin tired

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