I WaS trYiNg to bE NICE :<

I feel like a disappointment to my parents because they wanted a fast runner for a girl.. I was the slowest and I felt like I was useless for sports..
I also stutter alot and I have really low confidence..
I get angry at myself when I get something wrong...

I'm always grumpy because of the loss of Alice.. It was my dad's fault that she ran away. He was raging as usual and it was too loud for her.
And ya know what's worse? - he never listens when I say "Play a peaceful game"
That's what I do and that's why I don't rage, I mean who will rage when ya play gacha
(Literally me when I can't screenshot with nothing in my storage- )

And I don't cut myself. It was a cat attack, it's already healed and most of the scraches have disappeared

No, she's a school "friend"...
She ignored me 1 year ago.
So I will do the same after the holidays >:)

And I had to go clean the dining room at least 4 to 5 times because apparently I didn't do what my mom wanted, Which was clean the dining room all I had to really do sweep the floor pull out chairs stuff like that but, My sister had to clean the living room again for like the 5th time. Then yelling started and I get yelled at and when I do, I have a mental breakdown and feel like I'm useless all the time. That's what I'm feeling right now.