What you do?

You should probably get a fresh start in the anime maker community make a public post about it and maybe die down your character's features? I don't think you want to be remembered as that person who did something bad address the situation no matter how hard it may be and maybe start being nicer to the people that don't agree with you

I am a better person now right or... am i n-not...

I'm glad you understand now that what you did was terribly wrong and I hope you better as a person if you want I can help you take those few steps forward and to be coming a good person again