just a small vent

.

i just came all the way to school just to get bullied. i dont know why i am here i dont know why i belong here why do i still exist, why am i here, why did they tear up my sign in sheet i know dont know why, does everyone hate me? i cant trust anyone in my school not even a single thing, i dont wanna go i dont wanna get bullied why do i get bullied why am i here. i dont understand, pls. why do i exist. what if they dont like me what if im different what if they think im weird what if they think im strange what if they think im ugly why do they get to judge me why do they think these thoughts in there head that make them go like they say your weird. why are they staring at me am i weird? do i belong there? i just wanna go home i dont understand why they do those stuff that make me feel.. stuff. i dont know why. all of these faces all of these eyes looking at something or looking at you just makes you feel like a billion of negative words coming out of there eyes are there trying to say something bad about you. why do they? why does the person make them do these stuff or they just do it. why do i have to change myself what i am every single day when i go to school why do they think im weird why cant i really stand up for myself if they think they have every simgle friend in the school i dont get it why am i here these are the words i tell myself EVERY single day i go to school i have friends but i dont really know if i can trust them all the time because what if there just teasing me. i dont get it i dont know why i am still here i just wanna go to sleep forever i dont wanna be here anymore i dont wanna feel the hate or the pain anymore i wanna sleep forever and ever and just dream me being with my crush but i know that wont happen because there probably just teasing me.

i only use the internet to just show my “braveness epic” personailty and act soo cool with these shades but deep inside me i always get stared at and thinking what if im not really supposed to be here, i dont really think i belong there because the way they say it is just so concerning like what are they trying to say when they stare at me.

do i have to change my hair? do my clothes look weird? is my face weird? do i act weird? am i too weird?
sorry.
.

See all 0 comments