I’m going to delete this but uh

I don’t know why I feel so insecure being a girl nowadays
I feel like I’m in danger
I’m stressed out. I literally hear everyone whispering about me
I want to be friends with a boy and people tease me.
I want to joke a lot, but because I’m a girl I feel like I shouldn’t do that.
Can someone give me an advice?? I really want to disappear on reality